Monday, January 23, 2012

hair inspiration

proof! that 4b-4c-4z! hair can grow too lol =] (tumblr)

new tumblr!

decided to make a new tumblr, because I was tired of seeing the same ole mess on my dashboard. follow me =] Im in need some good tumblrs to follow. ->

Friday, January 6, 2012

my self-deliverance

What is the meaning of "being delivered"? It means to be set free from sin, temptation, bondages or anything that is hindering your walk with Christ. My flesh has become my worst enemy ever since I've been saved. Latley, I've been having constant thoughts of the past whether it is not forgiving someone for hurting me, regret, or just insecurites. The devil uses the guilt card on me all the time. "Remember what you did, or what they did to you, or you can't do that, or be that...remember?" The feeling of guilt, nothingness, worthless, the suicidal thoughts comes out of the clear blue sky and I'd be depressed for the rest of the day. Now I know I refuse to go back to be trapped in sin, because I've come this far. But God knows there was times I went to Him and then went back to my old ways because I felt discouraged. I believed, but my lifestyle was not Christ-like. 

One night I experienced a self-deliverence. It was after bible study and I was on my way home. For that night I felt horrible. I felt like there was something in me  that was just wieghing me down and I couldn't even put my finger on it. As I was driving home I decided I should just talk to God and the words poured out of me. I was sobbing and yelling out to God to help me, I kept on saying I'm a child of God. Then I started preaching to myself, I proclaimed to the devil, "I'm done, I'm done with you and I'm no longer listening to you anymore, I'm tired." I continued demanding to the devil, preaching and I'm thinking in my head all the words that were coming out my mouth are not my own, I was sure it came from God. Then I keep sobbing deeply, screaming and coughing like crazy to the point where I felt like I was drowning with air and I couldnt breathe normally. Some where after I was commanding to the devil I said in JESUS name, I started throwing-up air. I tried to stop because mind you I'm driving at the same time, but I couldnt. It didn't feel like I was physically throwing up anything, but my actions were indicating that I was throwing up, it was air, a spirit? Something that was deep, and heavy inside of me just came out of my body, my soul? After I was done starting praising God and thanking him and just humbling myself to him. I didnt know how to react what happened to me, until later that night my boyfriend told me what being delivered meant. I needed to be alone with God and to praise, and talk to him and ask for guidance. Once I had that experience, I know this is more real than ever, God is working through me and I have to change now so I can help others reach Him. How amazing is God!! God requires much of you, so there is no time for feeling not good enough for anything. Our Father has already forgiven you for whatever you done in the past, key is to pray, confess what you have done and ask for forgiveness. 

Proverbs 28:13 You will never succeed in life if you try to hide your sins. Confess them and  give them up; then God will show mercy to you.

Continuing to read and study the Bible is important, when you read His word your forever gaining knowledge and  encouragement. 

Joshua 1:8 Study this Book of Instruction continually. Meditate on it day and night so you will be sure to obey everything written in it. Only then will you prosper and succeed in all you do.

What is the devil gonna try to say next? Nothing, becuase once you get an understanding you can become bold in Christ, spread the good news, worship and have faith in Him. 

Isaiah 26:4 Trust in the LORD always,for the LORD GOD is the eternal Rock.

Don't sleep on the word, because the devil doesn't sleep.

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

new year...

I'm gonna keep doing what I did when I moved to VA in September, I didn't make any new year resolutions because every time I do, I end up right back where I was the previous year. I have my priorities straight though, even with dating...because for those who read my early posts, I wasn't in a great relationship. But I've moved on officially, and God found someone 10x better for me =] . I'm going to focus extra hard in school and read that bible so I can get closer to God because He has proven to me that I can't do it my way. His way is the only way, had to learn that the hard way. I'm happy and ready to step into the new year with confidence, wisdom and faith three qualities I never thought I'd have ever. I'm so thankful... ^_^

indian food made easy .

the freshest frozen vegetables ive ever had 



Chopped chicken breast 


 it's the simmer sauce is pretty good, one thing I wish I did was season the chicken prior to cooking it and adding the sauce. It also wasnt spicy, I was expecting to feel the burn but it was good. It's not salty I end up adding salt to taste. But that's a good thing..