Monday, November 19, 2012

Now Listening To: Alex Isley

Daughter of one of the Isley Brothers, there's no doubt she has talent. Her EP entitled The Love/Art Memoirs is almost euphoric with pretty harmonies and very neo-soul. She's also covered Amy Winehouse's He Can Only Hold Her and Frank Ocean's Thinking Bout' You  beautifully. I'm cant wait to hear more of her. 

You can download her EP here.

It's hard out here for a pimp...

I cant ask for anymore than that...but I embrace the struggle because once it's over, life will be even sweeter. Embrace the struggle.
- Shani

Saturday, November 17, 2012

christmas wishlist 2012

1. Topshop - Fur Lined Parka $190
2. H&M and Victoria's - Secret Gift Cards
3. -  Chunky Eternity Scarf $9
4. - Nikon Gold Bracelet Watch $281
5. - Isabella $51.98
6. Urban Outfitters - Iphone Fisheye Camera Lens $30
7. - Fistcup Brass Knuckle Mug $16
8. - Camouflage Palette $17
9. - Eau d'Hadrien  $57

Thursday, November 1, 2012

hurricane sandy

Although I'm tired of seeing and hearing about it all damn week, I hope everyone is okay. I've been in Connecticut at my boyfriend's parents' house all week and I'm ready to go back home and I hope New York gets back to normal soon. I really don't know whats been going on over there, but I heard people acting wild lootin and stuff, smh lol. Plus I have a unlimited weekly metro card that I DIDN'T GET TO USE, hopefully they have some sort of refund thingy, if you know about the subway please let me know. Really hope all is well.


Tuesday, October 2, 2012

No joke.

New York is a tough crowd. There's too many people out here trying to succeed and even more trying to get by. But I like it! it's been difficult trying to get situated but I wouldn't want it any other way. I'm just grateful I have family a train ride away and a supportive boyfriend.

I got this job as a telephone interviewer in the city and for 7.25 they are out they're mind because it's been by far the hardest job I've had yet. It's a start though.

I'm thankful and and hopeful for the future.

Saturday, September 22, 2012

the best gift..

I love when he sends me his poetry on Facebook even though he's sitting right next to me his poetry always paints colorful abstract pictures in my head idk why but here's what he sent me tonight...

Crowned queen
Lavender sea swell african brown skin
Such a beautiful sight
Tangled love in confusing world
A lot of things aren't adding up
But the way the lavender sea swell the African brown skin
Have me oh so sure
Empress of the land
I protect with my bare hands
Hope she feel the love in my touch
Hold her tight under the peaceful lavender sea
Oh what a dream
Laying under the beautiful lavender sea
such a queen
And I am her caribbean king
Going to war
Under the tiny lavender sea

Monday, September 10, 2012

happy birthday to me!

isnt this crazy, I was like wtf how they know?! I had to do a screen shot! loooove it!

Sunday, September 9, 2012

fall fashion wish list

I always love taking risks when it comes to fashion, these are a few outfits I'd love to wear that I feel contradict each other in some way, would you wear it?

 grunge prep
 match mixing prints
 soft & leather

Thursday, September 6, 2012


I think Im obsessed with getting married! I don't know if it's because I'm turning 21 on Monday or I just want a ring on my finger. This guy though, I can never stay mad at him for 5 mins. When we kiss we never go up for air and when I'm minding my own he kisses me all over like crazy til I start to laugh. When were out and give him a little peck on the cheek his whole mood lightens up and I feel like I can tell him anything.

Even though things aren't as I hoped to be, I never been so happy with someone for this long. Yea the way he acts sometimes irritates and I'm sure my ocd'ness pisses him off but we deal, but the hardest part is celibacy. Although it is refreshing to be with someone that respects my wishes of no sex, sometimes I forget that I wanted that, I mean we live together and were young but I refuse to let that be an excuse to break our promise. I know I torture him when I try to seduce him on purpose, but I'm working on it. He's resisted so far, and it shows me that he is a really strong man.  I can't even get offended by that, I'm actually impressed because I don't want to toot my own horn but you know haha okay Im done rambling lol. But I love him and I'm very thankful to have him in my life.

& after reading all the reasons why I want to get married, I just realized I'm not obsessed with marriage, I want to marry him.

Thursday, August 16, 2012

hair color inspiration: purples

hair fall
I love the magenta and lavender hair. I think magenta a great color for brown skin girls who want to try ombre with a funkier color. I'm terrified of color but except for burgundy, I think I might go for it later this year...

Wednesday, August 8, 2012

new york

I finally moved to new york guys! I got here on Saturday and I've been so busy trying to get comfortable. And I'm most def selling my car because I got two tickets so far, sooooo annoying. But I'm not letting it bother me, I'm just excited for the fashion, food, culture and the opportunities.

If any of you guys live in NY and know any good entertainment and stuff you'd love to recommend, let me know. I need some new yorker friends. Lol


Monday, July 30, 2012


It’s like we spend our lives looking for that one connection to someone so we can have a reason to fall in love. 

Then we ignore all the red flags and the little voices in our head to stay in love.

And then we sit there stuck wondering why everything fell apart.

I want to ask him if he'd ever hurt me, but what's the point in that question.

His past sounds familiar to me, déjà vu.

He's been in a broken home, he's made plenty of mistakes too

but I'm sucked in because he said he’s a changed person. 

Should I trust him?

Or should I run. 

Ready. To leap blindlessly with hope for no more broken promises.

No more damn lies.

Just comfort and wholeness.

Living with no doubt, no regret.

A new chapter I can begin, the past I can soon forget.

Sunday, July 1, 2012

pool party project x style

For those who seen the movie, I'm pretty sure after watching this we all wanted to go to a party like that minus the part when the house got burned down. Here are some ideas to wear to a pool party this summer...

lmbo @ his face, say no to drugs..

my top 5 facial products

My skin products change every month for some reason because I'm always looking for the best. I've been using these 5 products for the month of June.

1. Olay Complete UV Moisturizer spf 15 for combination/oily skin- It's pretty self explanatory. When i saw the word combination I had to grab it. I've been using it for a few months and it doesn't leave my face to oily or too dry. Good stuff!

2. Simple Refreshing Facial Wash Gel- I've only used it for 2 weeks but I've noticed that it doesn't leave my face dry and tight. So I like it.

3. Queen Helene Mint Julep Mask- This mask is a life saver! I use it once a week and it clears all those white heads and whatever roughness on my face. I got it at family dollar and its only $3.

4. Queen Helene Oatmeal 'n Honey Mask- It's  pretty good so far. I use it to get rid of my makeup. Keeps my face pretty smooth.

5. St. Ives Intensive Healing Lotion- I love this lotion, it has really helped my skin. I heat up the bottle after I get out the shower and it leaves my skin super soft. The lotion is thick so my skin stays moisturized throughout the day.

What are some products that you love to recommend?

Monday, June 18, 2012

kinda remind me of , cute stuff :)

Monday, June 4, 2012

back to yarn braids =)

its been a 2 years since ive worn yarn braids man...i hope they come out the way i want em ..full and long

I need to learn how to do these! 

Thursday, May 17, 2012

yay or nay : nose peircings

the nose ring is fake, I get bored of seeing the same face...should I get a peircing?? for those who has their nose peirced; is it worth it? 

Wednesday, May 16, 2012

dodging "bad love" bullets.

21 years old is right around the corner and I'm proud to say that I'm officially not a sucker for love.
I feel like I been there done that when it comes to relationships.
I have come a mighty long way from holding my pillow at night wishing that the guy in my english class would notice me days...
 obviously that never got the guy to notice me and when they did they end up being not what I expected.
I know for a fact I need to stop jumping from one guy to the next in hopes of my version of a fairytale ending, a guy actually taking me out on a date!
It doesn't have to be the typical candle light dinner, why is that so hard?
 I don't want to hear it’s a recession either!
I just want a guy who loves to see a girl happy and not expect anything out of it.
Needless to say Shani don’t love them hoes and from now on Shani is on a hiatus...
I'm going to be unavailable and focus on what’s important the most, me.

Saturday, May 5, 2012

diy cut offs

I'm so excited to finally make my first DIY cut offs although it really isn't my first time. I've been cutting jeans into shorts since I was 9 since I grew out of jeans pretty fast. I messed up alot of clothes because of that due to cutting them completely wrong and I occasionally got a whoopin for it,  but it never stopped my love fashion and creative ideas, lol anyways... I got these levi's at the local thrift store for $1!! yay I found my gold mine thrift store and I'll be making a post hopefully soon



i messed up the cut length but im just gonna keep em rolled up

thanks to cheap chic obsession for the diy :)

Friday, May 4, 2012

and i wish we never did it **trey songz voice**

your eyes gaze at me
i look around with uncerntanty
that anyone can look like that at me
i smile and look down shyly

my tall dark n handsome african prince is what i called you secretly
skype sessions til 4 in the morning talking about whatever came freely
singing britney spears acting goofy
i loved when youd stare at me

you called me beautiful, i didnt know how to react to that
i thought to myself damn he's such a catch
but i cant like this guy, so i let go my feelings for you...detached

the last skype session was the quietest, as i watched you play 2k and talk to your homie
it was 3am and you were mindless
and then you asked me "can i come over and chill."
chill? CHILL?
my guts were churning but some how i managed to ignore it when i said, "yes."

then you were here.
so confused, i wanted to read your mind as you took off your shoes and sat on my bed.
"lets watch a movie,"  you said.

i was happy to see you as i laid my head on your chest and we talked n talked...
i cared for you, i called you friend.
but lust was yours while the fool was mine as i gave in to your temptations
and my flirtatious habits came...
sex was your aim
now that sex is my shame
and you cant even be the one to blame

tried to be friends but there were too many words left unsaid
we got into an argument and my blunt words has you misled
 and after that youve havnt checked up on me since
im bummed because im missing out on a good friend
and i sorta miss you...
aaww well , neeeeeext! 

Saturday, April 21, 2012

im always posting nastygal's looks.. :)


Summer heat.
With the temperatures increasing, I'm dreading each day as I miss the cool winter breeze.
Heat waves  rippling on the black asphalt holding up the gas guzzling trucks coughing out grey smoke out their pipes into the great blue sky.
Girls dressed so skimpy I can’t tell the difference between dogs and men, as their eyes fixate onto a statuesque woman's curves walking by.
Showing out; guys playing ball and girlfriends cruising down the street for everyone to see.
Music bursting, base bumping out the speakers. Windows down, shades on, young. wild. free.
Heat changed mentality, laid back lax lifestyle, fun and memories begin.
But I’ll always  remember December, those memories lies be continued

Sunday, April 8, 2012

John 15:18

"If the world hates you, remember that it hated me first." John 15:18 . Lord, that speaks volumes to me. All the people in the world can talk bad about you and corrupt your life...

But I am loved because God has created me for a greater purpose and He gave his only begotten son so that I can be forgiven and He has blessed me through all my growing pains even my transgressions and He's the only one I need approval from. I live for Him, I'm not of this world..

Happy Resurrection Day.

Source: sinkingginhisgrace