yay or nay : nose peircings

the nose ring is fake, I get bored of seeing the same face...should I get a peircing?? for those who has their nose peirced; is it worth it? 

dodging "bad love" bullets.

21 years old is right around the corner and I'm proud to say that I'm officially not a sucker for love.

I feel like I been there done that when it comes to relationships.

I have come a mighty long way from holding my pillow at night wishing that the guy in my english class would notice me days...

 obviously that never got the guy to notice me and when they did they end up being not what I expected.

I know for a fact I need to stop jumping from one guy to the next in hopes of my version of a fairytale ending, a guy actually taking me out on a date!

It doesn't have to be the typical candle light dinner, why is that so hard?

 I don't want to hear it’s a recession either!

I just want a guy who loves to see a girl happy and not expect anything out of it.

Needless to say Shani don’t love them hoes and from now on Shani is on a hiatus...

I'm going to be unavailable and focus on what’s important the most, me.

diy cut offs

I'm so excited to finally make my first DIY cut offs although it really isn't my first time. I've been cutting jeans into shorts since I was 9 since I grew out of jeans pretty fast. I messed up alot of clothes because of that due to cutting them completely wrong and I occasionally got a whoopin for it,  but it never stopped my love fashion and creative ideas, lol anyways... I got these levi's at the local thrift store for $1!! yay I found my gold mine thrift store and I'll be making a post hopefully soon

(before)

(after!!!!)

i messed up the cut length but im just gonna keep em rolled up

thanks to cheap chic obsession for the diy :) http://cheapchicobsession.com/2011/06/diy-nasty-gal-inspired-cut-off-shorts/

and i wish we never did it **trey songz voice**

your eyes gaze at me

i look around with uncerntanty

that anyone can look like that at me

i smile and look down shyly

my tall dark n handsome african prince is what i called you secretly

skype sessions til 4 in the morning talking about whatever came freely

singing britney spears acting goofy

i loved when youd stare at me

you called me beautiful, i didnt know how to react to that

i thought to myself damn he's such a catch

but i cant like this guy, so i let go my feelings for you...detached

the last skype session was the quietest, as i watched you play 2k and talk to your homie

it was 3am and you were mindless

and then you asked me "can i come over and chill."

chill? CHILL?

my guts were churning but some how i managed to ignore it when i said, "yes."

then you were here.

so confused, i wanted to read your mind as you took off your shoes and sat on my bed.

"lets watch a movie,"  you said.

i was happy to see you as i laid my head on your chest and we talked n talked...

i cared for you, i called you friend.

but lust was yours while the fool was mine as i gave in to your temptations

and my flirtatious habits came...

sex was your aim

now that sex is my shame

and you cant even be the one to blame

tried to be friends but there were too many words left unsaid

we got into an argument and my blunt words has you misled

 and after that youve havnt checked up on me since

im bummed because im missing out on a good friend

and i sorta miss you...

aaww well , neeeeeext!